Little by little the pieces of a broken life get put back together. Things start to normalize. New routines get put into place. Time marches on. While grief still looms in the background like a ever constant shadow, a new sense of freedom slowly begins to emerge. The old rules and expectations of how things should be no longer apply. Things can be done differently. Traditions can be held or not held. No. - really is a complete sentence. Now life gets a new design of how things might be. I won't have to cook Thanksgiving dinner this year, and I'd really like to spend it differently. This year I'd like to sit back with a great big cup of coffee and watch the Macy's Day Parade from start to finish. Then, while still lounging in my PJs, I'd like to take in the dog show and then, while enjoying my pre-prepared Turkey Gobbler (WaWa), I'd like to watch Miracle on 34th Street. I don't want to make small talk. I don't want to plaster on a fake smile for the day. I want to be home for the holiday surrounded by my beautiful memories of a beautiful life. It's a comfort to me to be in the home that brings me joy. This plan sounds just right for me this year. Who knows, next year might be completely different! Like I said there are no set rules anymore.
4 comments:
No rules, do what's best for you. Holidays are still very hard for us, but making new traditions helps the transition of what was to what will be.
Changes in our lives often result in new traditions, and many times, that is a liberating feeling. Listening to yourself and determining what your needs and wants are at a time of change is empowering.
How you have your holidays belongs just to you.your plan sounds great to me.
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